What To Do With Bad Thoughts – Poet’s Perspective

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Everybody gets bad thoughts. Sometimes they come in flashbacks and sometimes they creep in. They are dark thoughts, and they amaze ourselves. They scare us. They fascinate us. They are gulleys and pitfalls as we look for light. There is nothing wrong with having bad thoughts. There is nothing you can do to stop them. We can only put them in a different place.

There is a comfort to common thoughts. We all have images and memories that bring us a smile, or ideas that form into function. An idea can become an action, and an experience can become a thought. How we understand and visualize thoughts, helps us to put them away, to give up on the thought.

Thoughts can also return, like a dream that goes round and round. We can wake up from a dream, but it’s hard to wake up from a conscious thought.

Bad thoughts can grow because we don’t know what to do with them. They can be particularly annoying and make us tired. They lurk in, or they suddenly appear. An incident happens or a memory is jarred loose. A bad thought can startle us. But remember this, if the bad thought bothers you, or makes you scared, or leaves a bad feeling when it goes away, then you are okay.

If uncontrollable bad thoughts are a problem, recognizing the problem means you will be okay.

The difficulty is that a bad thought has no where to go. It cannot sleep. It enters uninvited and stays if it can get your attention. A bad thought can hang around, sitting quiet, and then appear, again, and again. These re-occurring thoughts can trigger physical discomfort, or make us ill. The thought must be settled. The thought must be filed away.

Poets know how to do this. They express by exploring memories and experiences to find the root of the thought. Then they use all their conscious energy to write down what they are experiencing. Essentially, the poet puts the thought into an idea, and then puts the idea into an action.

The stress for a poet, is finding a way to save and store these passionate and compelling thoughts. The poet wants to store thoughts that can be retrieved. If the poet digs deep enough, they can bring back their innermost thoughts of anguish, turmoil and evil. The thoughts are expressed and stored in a message.

Other people are able to read the poet’s message and they might recognize the thoughts. A reader might discover they are not alone and share similar thoughts. This is the connection between the reader and the poet. This connection can benefit a reader. The poet can construct a message that enables the reader to store their own bad thoughts. The poet can give the reader a place to park their despair.

The poet also receives benefit by expressing painful thoughts into ideas, and then into messages. The poet is cleansed. By storing the messages on the page truthfully, the poet is free to enjoy other activities and other thoughts. The poet can return to the message and return to the troubling thoughts.

However, the process of discovering the bad thoughts that lurk in the poet’s mind is draining, both physically and mentally. A poet might quest to find the deepest, most compassionate thoughts. The poet becomes a marathon thinker, obsessed and ruminating on a cluster of thoughts. A poet might not eat, or sleep, and their actions might appear irrational as they search for strings of thoughts to build a common message.

Some poets suffer with depression and anxiety. Some poets have become notorious drug and alcohol users, while others struggle with their thoughts, puzzled how their thoughts compare to the priorities and characteristics of society. A poet might wander the street vocalizing thoughts, oblivious to consequence. The poet is mining thoughts from within.

Poets also pause to see beauty. A poet can journey to inner thoughts and dare to touch ecstasy. This is the freedom of the poet: through an individual desire to open up thoughts, a poet can discover thoughts within themselves that are exquisite, and thoughts that are bad.

How does a poet get rid of bad thoughts? They draft, compose, and then deliver. There’s an old saying, “the writer must weep if the reader is to shed a tear.” Have you ever noticed singers weeping as they croon a ballad? This is because they are expressing thoughts and imagery into a message, and then delivering the message to an audience with physical effort. The singer, like the poet, is overcome by the thoughts generating the message. The intensity is so great during their performance, that the singer’s thoughts grow into a physical association—they cry.

A poet might cry, as well, when they are composing. Thoughts might be so intense, so forceful, that the act of writing is not enough, then tears can end up on the page. A poet might stumble, exploring such dark and disturbing thoughts, that the impressions and ideas linger, coming back when the poet is not composing. Luckily, the poet has a little trick.

The poet knows when they are working, and when they are not. A poet makes a conscious decision to explore bad thoughts. Like practicing an instrument, they have to warm up. Or when a bad thought happens, they are trained to hold onto that thought. When the poet is done creating, or when the poet needs a rest, they place the thought into a message so they can retrieve it again. A poem, or writing, is a lot like a message in a box. You can put bad thoughts into this same place.

Here’s an anecdote… I was having bad thoughts. Because of my busy experiences, I could not properly express my thoughts in messages and stick them somewhere. The thoughts would surface, and I could easily get caught in a rut, dwelling on the bad thoughts. It’s hard to recognize when these bad thoughts are piling up, or sneaking in. I was tardy. I wasn’t taking the time to have positive experiences and heal. Eventually, I had to do a bulk bad thought cleanse.

I went back to my inner teachings, the guide who makes us question when we get too far away. I asked for help.

Appearing in my thoughts was a long platform, like a diving board. Far away, on a similar platform, stood my guide self, like an imaginary friend, or a kindly supervisor that checks in. Before me, on my long platform, sat piles of putrid goo and muck. The substance was awful and stuck to everything. I was overwhelmed with how much tar and sludge had collected. My guide spoke,

“Throw it.”

I knew my guide wanted me to bundle the terrible ooze and chuck it, to the other platform. This giving presence was asking me to pass over all the terrible stuff. I felt scared to do it, to give all my contaminated baggage away, but my guide insisted, and even appeared wearing a baseball glove. So I threw it. And the more I threw, concentrating on physically pushing away the bad, the more the platform was cleansed. I was so happy, I began to drill hard balls of darkness at my guide. Not one pass missed. Everything I threw, even wildly, was caught perfectly by my guide and taken away. I was visualizing an association between the terrible gunk and the  bad thoughts I had collected. As the mess was cleared from my imaginary platform, the bad thoughts were no longer a priority. This exercise is a natural response that helps humans process bad thoughts.

When I was complete in this visualization, I returned invigorated, elated, and thankful. I had been meditating deeply and felt tired. I was able to release such clutter from within my imagination, that it caused me a physical reaction. I was crying.

Each person is unique and special, and each living person wakes to a world here with us. Together, we are at this point. All around us bubbles life and death, good thoughts and bad thoughts, smiles and tears. You are not alone, having bad thoughts.

How to get rid of bad thoughts:
-Dig to find the root of the bad thought.
-Form it into an idea or a scene.
-Express the bad thought in writing, or do as I do
-Acknowledge the bad thought, and release it to my inner teacher for long term safe storage.

When I first asked for help to get rid of bad thoughts, I was halfway to winning.

You’re Already There. You Already Won. You win when you turn to ask. Nothing is forsaken.
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